pelikula:

The Bloody Chamber
by Don Jaucian

Mga Anino sa Tanghaling Tapat (Shadows of Noon, 2011)
D: Ivory Universe Baldoza
S: Martha Nikko Comia, Althea Vega, Ness Roque, Flor Salanga

Feminine wiles take center stage in Ivy Baldoza’s Mga Anino sa Tanghaling Tapat. The film is a sensual shadow play in the darkest recesses of the female psyche, tapping various degrees of desire, longing, and despair. It crawls into the subspace of sexual awakening and the gradual slipping of innocence by the use of some of the most controversial images in Philippine cinema, and their effects are of varying credibility. Their placements can be a little bit questionable, but as the film ends its gruesome pilgrimage, the images skitter and settle, lost in the haze of summer’s end. 

Its three central characters, Ines, Ezra, and Odessa (brilliantly played by Martha Comia, Althea Vega, and Ness Roque, respectively), reflect the burrowing core of the film. Here are three characters, all set to explore the complications of the world, with one barely into adolescence. When Odessa has her first period, her mother Esther (Flor Salanga) coaxes her to smear her face with her own menstruation, insisting that it is a tradition handed down from generations to clear a budding woman’s skin. The idea of course repulses Odessa, but it isn’t really more than an act of using her own blood as facial wash. Her actions are part of a rebellion against her mother’s straitjacketing. She sets out to find a boyfriend, she stuffs her bra to get a boy’s attention, and she hangs around with Ines, asking her about the rituals of womanhood. 

But it is Ezra that we are drawn most to. Althea Vega’s face seethes with the tenacity of the most evil women to grace celluloid, but she masks this with a visage so delicate and endearing. Her looks cut and bruise, but her womanly instincts are even more dangerous. She takes after her mother, all matronly, strict, and chained to a life revolving around household chores. As she observes Ines and Odessa, she also embarks in her own explorations, venturing off into the woods, taking away her own virginity with a fruit, and cavorting with a woodsman who passes the time by fucking holes in banana trees. Her pain is inarticulate, but her desire to break free from the restrictions of her mother’s reach takes form in these mutinies, taking full shape like her breasts on her tight dresses.

Amid all of this, Esther’s presence lingers. Her bland, old-world impositions are apparent in each of the girls’s actions, as well as the menacing stares of the household and all of its contents, an abode that Esther has claimed for their own. Her maternal instincts aren’t that blinded by her own beliefs; it is her insistence to keep to the ways that generations of her family has learned to follow to survive. But when Ines’s mother mysteriously disappears into the forest, only to be found naked, bearing marks of sexual transgressions, their family is shamed into retracting to a more shrouded existence.

Much like the house, the forest in Mga Anino acts as a cave teeming with desires and the fantastic. Ines searches the woods for answers about her mother’s past, only to find their most shocking manifestations. The forest hems her in, drawing Odessa and Ezra as well until all three of them are shocked into the repercussions of their own misconducts. Found objects sustain their exploits, and a rock acts as a womb where they listen for whispers, signals to point them to a direction where there is less misery and decay.

Shadows stir in corners as the footfalls crunch the indecencies that the floorboards hide. But Mga Anino is never about resolve. The closure feels more like a patch in a gap, and the sequences feel headier as it goes along. But its beguiling leads carry it on. The characters eventually break off into their own tangents, but there is a strangeness that gathers around them, an atmosphere bloodied by their own pyschosexual meanderings. 

»>waaaahhhh…hypher active! cant wait to see this film…books aren’t enough…=) full trailer please… 

zombiemergencyresponseoperations:

It’s been an up and down roller coaster, which i’ve managed to survive (somewhat). Y’ gotta take time to sit back and assess the mess.

Next films for review:

Panic Button (2011)

On The Inside (2011)

Out Idiot Brother (2011)

The Devil’s Double (2011)

Alyce (2011)

Killer Elite (2011)

Today is a new day… let’s get shit done shall we?

» got no reason to hang it over…try to relieved,reflect and retry. =)

8 years ago..

Nov.21 ,2004( 4 days before my birthday)

- yun yung araw na sobarang saya ko, dahil at last, sinagot na ako ni leanne which would be the greatest gift that i received in my 14year of existence.

panu ko sya niligawan?ahhh..sobrang corny ko at sobrang torpe..actually, si leanne ang unang babae na niligawan ko. transferee ako nun sa kanilang school (2nd year high school). The usual Ligaw type.  

NOvember 21,2004 ng magdecide akong lumipat ulit ng ibang school. And as a part of my farewell to my classmates, gumawa ko ng sulat for leannne stating hopw much I love and fancies her since the first day I saw her. Pinabasa ko yun sa harap ng klase, pero nasa labas ako ng room. Nakita ko syang umiiyak habang binabasa ni Jov ang sulat ko. Kantyawan! at nung recess time, lumabas sya. Hinabol nya ako hanggang sa faculty. Pagkatapos yun! she hug me goodbye pero sinabi nyang matagal nya na rin naman akong gusto. Napiyak ako sa sobrang sya! At last! Nagbunga ang kauna unahang panliligaw ko…

I made everything just to secure our relationship. Pinakilala nya agad ako sa pamilya nya at agad naman akong tinanggap nila. Just to promise them iingatan ko si Leaanne at magtatapos kami ng pag aaral bago ang lahat. Every single day of our relationship was wonderful. Halos wala na akong mahiling pa nung mga sandaling yun. All the characteristics of a perfect girlfriend na hinahanap ko eh nasa kanya na ata- beautiful, mabait, caring, understanding, bubbly at magaling sumayaw( with a little frustration in singing..hehe)..sya lang ang tanging babae na nirespeto ko..i never took advantage of her during our dates..hindi ko sya pinag isipan ng mahalay though open an gaming usapan at kung minsan pa ng ay naglolokohan pa kami…ahhhhh….Leanne is everything and something that I wanted and I have in my life…nothing I’d asked for more…

Uo paminsan minsan nagkakatampuhan kami, natural nman yun sa magkasintahan eh. Pero hanggang dun lang yun. Hindi natatapos ang araw o gabi na hindi naming napag uusapan o nasosolve kung anuman yun problema naming.

Grumaduate ako ng high school na kami parin. Hindi na muna ako nag enroll sa college for one year para magtrabaho at mag ipon for the upcoming year.pero pumasok si Leanne. UP DILIMAN nursing student dahil may kaya naman ang pamilya nya. 3 silang magkakapatid at sya lang ang nag isang babae at bunso pa. I am really proud of her dahil sobrang napakabait sa akin ng pamilya nya at wala akong masabi. 

NOVEMBER 15, 2007 ng magdecide akong umuwi sa Mindoro (I work as a caregiver and physical therapist sa cavite) para i-celebrate ang 4th year anniversary ng relationship namin ni Leanne. Umuwi din sya galing ng manila dahil mas gusto naming mag celebrate kung saan una kaming nagkakilala.

THE TRAGEDY I WOULD NEVER FORGET

NOvember 21, 2007

Nagkaroon ng celebration sa bahay nila. Konting inuman, kamustahan at kwentuhan kasama pamilya nya. Sobrang saya namin nun dahil pati parents nya nakisama sa kwentuhan at inuman. Sobrang namiss ko si Leanne. Halos ayaw ko syang mahiwalay sa tabi ko nung time na yun kahit pa panay na ang kantyaw sa amin nina kuya Nathan at kuya Bernard. Medyo nanenermon na rin si tita Fhem. Para daw kaming tuko..hehe..pero sinaway agad ni tito Loloy.

Past 10pm nung kailangan ko ng umuwi. Ako ang pinadrive ni kua Nathan ng motor. Si Leanne nasa likod ko and after her si kua Nathan. Madilim na at medyo umuulan pa nun. But i still managed to drive and go home kahit pa ininsist nina tita fem na dun na ko magpalipas ng gabi.

Medyo mabilis ang pagpapatakbo ko ng motor dahil sobrang lamig. Nagkukwentuhan at tawanan parin kami habang nasa sasakyan. Hindi pa kami nakakalayo sa bahay nila when the tragedy happens. NADISGRASYA ANG MOTOR NA SINSAKYAN NAMIN SA ISANG TULAY. Hindi ko nakita ang humps na kalahati ng pinutol na gulong at hinarang bago makasampa sa tulay. Huli na ng makapagpreno. Halos naibirit ko pa ang silinyador dahil sa pagkataranta.

Mabilis ang pangyayari. Nakita ko si kuya Nathan nahulog sa gilid ng tulay. Hinanap ko agad si leanne kahit madami akong sugat sa pagkakatalsik namin. Nakita ko sya nakabulagta malapit sa grills ng tulay. Maraming dugo! binuhat ko sya agad at tinakbo sa malapit na ospital( dahil metro lang naman ang layo ng malapit na ospital mula dun sa pinangyarihan). But it is too late. SHE LEFT ME….SHE DIED….Tumama ang sintido nya sa isang bakal na nakausli sa tulay.

Sumigaw ako…umiyak…sising sisi ako sa nangyari…gusto ko ring magpakamatay that time..maraming pumasok sa isip ko…halos walang patid ang luha ko habang yakap ko nun si Leanne sa hospital bed kahit andaming dugo na sa mukah ko.

Dumating agad ospital sina tita fhem.niyakap nila si Leanne habang umiiyak at ako panay ang hingi ng sorry. Alam ko galit ang mga kuya nya sa akin that time pero hindi na nila ako inaway dahil wala din naming silbi kahit bugbugin nila ako dahil din a maiibalik buhay ni Leanne. Nabalian ng buto sa kaliwang binti si kuya Nathan at tinahi ang sugat sa balakang. Ang siste, ako lang sa aming tatlo ang halos galos lang ang nakuha buhat sa pagkakadisgrasya. Hindi nagalit sa akin sina tito at tita, sa halip niyakap pa ako ni tita fhem at sinabi “wala na yung babaeng pinakamamahal namin” ..kinomfort pa nila ako..sobrang bait nila sa akin..pero ang pakiramdam ko sana pinakulong na lang nila ako kesa hinayaang magkaganun…kinausap din nila ang mga pulis na wag na sanang palakihin at kalimutan na lang ang tungkol dun dahil gusto nila ng pribadong buhay kahit ganun ang nangyari…

Kung galit ako sa sarili ko ng mga panahong yun, mas galit ako kay Leanne…sobrang galit na galit….dahil nangako sya sa akin..WALANG IWANAN NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS…nangako sya sabi nya noon kung aalis ang isa, kailangang sumama ang isa pa! at yun ang lagi kong pinanghahawakan! pero sinira nya..iniwan nya parin ako..wala syang isang salita….

Lahat ng litrato nya at mga gamit at regalo na ibinigay nya sa akin sinunog ko.. wala akong itinira kahit isa…hindi ko pinaalam kina mama at papa tungkol sa mga bagay na nangyari sa akin..wala silang kaalam alam…

Every single day I blamed her for leaving me too early…I suffered a lot and bears the pain hanggat nabubuhay pa ako…i never want to move on since then..habang buhay na prusa ang kailangan para sa akin..walang gabi na hindi ako umuiyak nun..gusto kong magwala pero di ko magawa..ayokong malaman ng iba kung anuman yung nararamdaman ko..ayokong kaawaaan ng ibang tao dahil di ako karapat dapat kaawaan…sinarili ko for the past years ang problema na iyon at pinangako o na ikukwento ko lang ang tungkol sa bagy na ito kapag nakamove on na ako at nakita ko na ang taong mamahalin ko gaya ng pagmamahal ko kay Leanne…dahil tuwing susubukan kong magkwento tungkol sa mga pangyayari the day she left me, di ko napipigilang umiyak..para akong bata…

Mula nun..maraming nag iba..I even cursed the name of god for what had happened….since then, i always took relationships for granted..wala akong sineryoso ni isa man..

I still managed to enroll in college in the following year. I took up information technology course. 2nd year nun ng makilala ko si Aime. Alam ko may gusto sya sa akin pero ako wala. 1night naisipang naming mag inuman sa boarding house nya, and it happens. May nangyari sa amin dala ng kalasingan. Nabuntis sya pero nilayo sya sa akin ng parents nya dahil nag aaral pa kaming pareho. Hindi ako nag complain dahil totoo naman at takot ako sa responsibilidad ng pagpapamilya, at dahil na rin di ko naman talaga mahal si Aime.

Lumuwas sila ng pamilya nya sa ibang lugar at dun na nanganak. Pinadala nya naman sa akin litrato ng anak ko nung two months old na ito.

We had no formal communication hanggang mabalitaan ko last sept.1 na ipepetition na sya ng bago nyang asawa papuntang amerika(LA). Again i broked down dahil ilalayo sa akin ang anak ko, pero wala akong magawa…

But before that, May 4, 2011 ng makilala ko ang taong muli nagpatibok ng puso ko after Leanne. Sya lang ulit ang taong seneryoso ko maliban kay Leanne..nagbago ako para sa kanya…hindi na gaya ng dati.. kung anong relasyon ang binigay ko kay Leanne noon, sya ring binigay ko kay nath. again, sobrang saya ko…marami akong sinakripisyo just to save our relationship…and again for the first time in my life. Ako ang binigyan nya ng singsing…di ako makapagsalita…we date a lot..we kiss a lot and make love for several times…mas lalo ko syang minahal sa mga bagay na nangyari sa amin…sobrang trineasure ko sya sa takot ko na muli, mawala sya sa akin…

But Sept.1, 2011, four days before our four months of relationship, my fear has arrivesd…nakipaghiwalay sya sa akin… tinext nya ako na di nya na kayang ipagpatuloy pa ang relasyon na meron kami dahil alam nyang di rin naman kami ang magkakatuluyan sa huli…ang sakit! pero di na ko naghabol..dinibdib ang bagay na yun kait di ko pinaramdam sa kahit na sino, kahit pa sa kanya. I pretended na ok lang..hindi ako apektado kahit alm ko sa sarili ko na for the second time around, someone takes my life away…2weeks akong nagkasakit at halos di madalas kumain..nag aalala na sina papa at mama dahil di ko naman sinasabi sa kanila kung anong problema ko…patago kung umiyak ako dahil ayokong mapagsabihang BADING dahil umiiyak…nagpakalbo ako..nagtatrabaho making myself busy para lang hindi ko sya maisip, pero tuwing hihinto naman ako sa mga ginagawa ko, lalo lang lumalala ang sitwasyon..mas lalo ko syang iniisip..kahit pagpasok ko sa school at mga kaibigan ko apektado na sa mga kinikilos ko dahil di ko magawang magsabi sa kanila kung anog problema ko. Naging mas di ako palaimik at pala absent ako sa school..alam ko apektado narin ang grades ko…

Again, bumalik ako sa dating ako mula ng iniwan ko ni Leanne…always heartache..minsan lang ako magmahal pero lagi naman akong iniiwanan..i cried several times…gusto kong magwala. ..pumatay at magpakamatay….lagi na lang ganito..lagi na lang..paulit ulit na lang…di na nagbago…

Ilang beses tinangka nina mama at papa na tanungin kung anong problem ko pero di ako nagsasalita…hanggang isang araw.. September 8, 2011- nadisgrasya si papa..nahulog sya mula sa van ng kanyang sinakyan..dun ko naisip bigla nag mga ginagawa ko…sinabi sa akin ni mama nung umagang yun bago madisgrasya si papa na namumrublema daw sa akin si papa at nag aalala dahil ilang lingo na akong ibang iba at parang di nila kilala..gusto kong maiyak nung time na yun dahil unag beses kong marinig sa mga magulang ko kung gaano silang nag aalala sa mga kinikilos ko. Pero di parin ako nag sassalita..muntik ng macommatose si papa pero mabuti na lang at naagapan pa..

And with this…pinapangako ko na mula ngayon…i would never love anyone or anybody except from the one who brokes my heart lastly…and since then, I hate ‘BER months..

KUNG DI LANG DIN NAMAN SIYA….DI NA RIN AKO MAGMAMAHAL NG IBA…

Ps: nagtatapang tapangan ako ngayong ikwento ang mga bagay na ito just to slightly eased the pain..sana di ako nagkamali…

ken hermoso

littlemissdorkette:

Rupert and Dan preparing for their last day of filming.

ahhh…so sad..i dont have a chance to watch the full movie of the last HP series.. =(

based on what had happened to me this pass few day, there are certain things that bears in my thought..and those things would always be something that comes along in my ways…ALL THE TIME..

1. NEVER ASSUMES THAT FRIENDSHIP IS JUST AN ENOUGH REASON FOR YOU TO HOLD ON FOR SOMETHING THAT YOU DID FOR ALMOST AN UNCOUNTABLE TIMES.

2. EVERYTHING CHANGES- THEIR IS THIS PERSON WHO QUITE SENSIBLE. SHE TELLS SOMETHING THAT IS DIFFERENT FROM THE WAY SHE THINKS AND ACTS ON IT.

3. PHYSICAL INJURIES CAN BE CURED FOR ONLY A FEW DAYS. BUT EMOTIONAL FRACTURES WILL NEVER BE MENDED- MAYBE THEN, IT WOULD TAKES A LIFETIME PROCESS TO COPE UP AGAIN FROM WHAT HAD CHANGES..

………………………HOPE YOU COULD FEEL………………………